Futile Lament

I'm dead
yet I'm walking
I have no voice
yet I'm somehow talking
my heart is buried beneath his grave
yet still it's hurting
Why am I cursed?

My life, a vicious circle
History repeats itself and laughs on my face
once more I stand broken
same spot again,
this time beyond repair?

My tears are running within my head
for I gave you things you don't want to deserve
Love, tender care, a home in my embrace
with multiple betrayal I was repayed
You taught me the truth through all these lies
now I know how everything dies.

I gaze with envy this mausoleum
feeling this is where I belong
it isn't fair
I wonder
why?
Why am I not allowed to die?
But a heartless being can't meet death twice
and with you, my only love,
I buried my heart...